Just when I thought I was over you..

...stupid, silly love song that keeps looping in my head. it makes me think of all the things i have held back inside of my brain, a cavernous waste of space that should be taken up by my precious fun memories and adventures instead.  I have allowed these bad memories/tainted times to enter my happy reveries every so often, I feel that pang in my gut and a hollowness in my throat.  I want to purge it from me. I am ready to finally move on from so much junk and make more space for the wonderful things to come for me.

I know i need to start by getting rid of the extraneous that surrounds me.  Clothes, shoes, *things* that I just don't need. it would be one hell of a purge, but it needs to be done. I know that once all the material stuffs are extracted from my life, I will not only feel less encumbered by my tangible items, but by my thoughts as well.

I have always been a pack rat.. and i have gotten MUCH better.. although there are still some things i own from the 80's.  Yes, sad but true. and no, not my Star Wars figures.. THAT would be on my "to stay" list! I mean little cards, tapes, gifts, things that have had sentimental value of some sort for me. I realize now that I have much more love and support out there that doesn't come attached to any item that i could hold or keep packed away for another 30 years.

It's time to let it all go.  I would offer things to others if I thought any of the items would hold value to anyone other than me, "one woman's junk..." and all that, but no. Old scraps of wrapping paper from gifts, a piñata my grandma mamie got for me in Epcot Center world showcase(we all went in 1988 when more of the pavilions opened for Mickey's 60th birthday), some old soaps and gels .. really, nothing anyone would want.

So I started two weeks ago, I got two bags full of old clothes out of one of my closets. I still have plenty more to go through but I've stopped for some reason.  I must get re-motivated to lose all this extra weight.

I WILL get over you, I will get rid of you, and I WILL STOP having stupid love songs playing over and over in my head!!